I see you're looking for more information about the webmaster- in which case, welcome! I'm a 24 year old cat-bat-thing using the computer who lives in Canada with my cat Percy. I'm trying so fucking hard to survive in on this planet.

Me as a person

It's pretty hard for me to describe who I am as a person, thanks to cognitive dysfunction, but I see myself as being a "sociable hermit." See... I definitely like being around other people and I make it my duty to help others out whenever possible, but I spend a lot of my time inside while dealing with whatever chronic illness has wreaked havoc on my life at the moment. Circumstances outside of my control have forced me into a life of isolation, but then comes the beauty of the internet being my access to the outside world! More on that later...

I am also all about being in control of my environment. Organizing, planning and scheduling all run my life, and I must be sure about what I'm getting into whenever I take any risks. This can be a double-edged sword; where I'm providing myself with a lot of comfort by planning things ahead thoroughly, but often getting so caught up on the details that I can sometimes become overwhelmed with it all. If it has to do with making unplanned decisions, then I want nothing to do with it! I'm also a big creature of habit and I hate any kind of change to my routine or environment.

Here are some other quick facts about my personality.

• I learn best by doing- this site is proof of this, as I've been able to learn almost all of my knowledge through coding it!
• I tend to be very emotional, even if I can't or don't always express myself this way.
• Although I can appreciate abstract theories, concrete facts just make the most sense for me.
• I thrive off of having a sense of belonging amongst others.

🌐 My history on the internet

Having been using the computer since 2003, and being an internet user since too young around 2004, it only made sense that I'd make my own website where I can fully express myself! This is far from being my first time with making my own website, but sadly those websites have since ceased to exist. Therefore, I wanted to create a new website that reflects the person that I currently am today, and something that also calls back to the first websites I made in the late 2000's. I do miss the time on the internet before corporations got their hands on it and advertisements were everywhere, and I miss how customizable things were back in the day (even if it was the wild west of the internet...) So, I wanted to create a website that reminded me of those times, while also providing fresh and modern attributes to it!

I first started using the internet to play games like Club Penguin and Webkinz, before I discovered that people created and uploaded their own stuff to websites like YouTube and DeviantArt. Although I was way too young to be on the internet, I still created accounts on these websites and uploaded my artwork and videos to these platforms, and the rest is history! From there I was able to build up my coding skills from sites like DeviantArt and Tumblr- and eventually down the line- Toyhouse, ArtFight, and now Neocities! It's also thanks to these websites that I've been able to find myself in communities like the furry, other/fictionkin, therian, and cripplepunk communities!

Speaking of, I think the main reason why I've continued to use the internet for so long and to the degree that I do, is because it gives me- a multiply disabled person- the chance to connect with other people around the world, sometimes other people who are also disabled in some way! Without having access to the internet, I'd be a much more lonely person, and we all know what loneliness can do to a person. The Internet has also given me a vital method of expressing myself, especially as someone who struggles with speech and language thanks to their disabilities- coding is just one of the many ways I'm able to express myself with technology and the internet.

Overall, I have a lot of things to thank the internet for providing me with, because I certainly wouldn't be the same person without my experiences online.

💭 Dreams and aspirations

Truth be told, it's difficult for me to have dreams or aspirations for the future when the world is the way it is against disabled people, at least right now. It's likely that I will never be able to work to the same standards as abled people, disability benefits only give you so much, and there's always the chance that my health can decline further, so I've become afraid of setting myself up for disappointment if and when things don't go my way.

That being said, I do have a few ideas on what my ideal life would be like, if it were up to me. For one, I know for a fact that I'd want to live with my partner, and preferably somewhere with good public transportation and all of my needs close to me. I'd also love to have enough money for the both of us to not only have our basisc necessities covered, but also for us to be able to indulge in our hobbies and travel frequently to see our friends.

Special interests

Furry culture - My main fursona is Hyson the vampire bat, who is also my fursuiting character! So far I've only been to one convention twice (CanFURence '23 and '24,) but I'm making plans to visit even more furry conventions in the future!
Toys and toy collecting - My favourite toys to collect are plushies, and I collect from many brands!
Rollercoasters - I have over 50 coaster credits, my home park is La Ronde and My favourite coasters are Leviathan at Canada's Wonderland and Iron Gwazi at Busch Gardens Tampa! I also have a beginner's guide if you're interested!
Music - I don't play any instruments myself, I just love listening to music and often find myself fixating on specific bands and musicians!

Media interests

Shows Yellowjackets, M*A*S*H, Lost, Jackass, Futurama, Venture Brothers, Bojack Horseman, Tuca and Bertie, The Owl House, Infinity Train, Archer, My Little Pony, Breaking Bad, Psych, Barry, Big City Greens, Gravity Falls

Movies Martin, Black Christmas, Brain Damage, Wall-E, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Jennifer's Body, Creep 1+2, Drive, Alien, Kung Fu Panda, How To Train Your Dragon, Candyman, Carrie, Akira, Pacific Rim, Tetsuo: The Iron Man, Texas Chainsaw Massacre 1+2, Behind The Mask, Into the Spiderverse, Baby Driver, The Exorcist, Get Out

Games Hotline Miami, Ratchet and Clank, Minecraft, Petz (by PF Magic, not the Ubisoft series!), Sonic the Hedgehog, Super Mario Bros, Pokemon 1000 Spikes, Silent Hill, Resident Evil, Digimon, Megaman,

Other media Sanrio, Marble Hornets, EverymanHYBRID, WHAM City Comedy + Alan Resick, Disney, Dreamworks, Rankin-Bass, Red Letter Media, LPSTube and KinzTube, SmallAnt, Scott the Woz, Jerma985, commentary YouTube, Defunctland, BrutalMoose, LA Beast

Music I'm gonna have an entire page dedicated to this eventually. For now, have my Last. FM

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♿️ About my disabilities

I'm multiply disabled, and this has become a very important part of my identity, as my disabilities have influenced every part of my life.

I was born with a condition called Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (hEDS), which is part of a group of connective tissue disorders that affect how the body produces collagen. Since collagen is found all throughout every single organ system of the body, this means that Ehlers Danlos Syndromes have a wide range of symptoms and affect on one's quality of life and survival, which is why the 13 different subtypes exist in order to classify patients based on their symptoms and how their faulty collagen production affects them.

Because of this, I also have many other comorbidities that all affect my quality of life and wellbeing, and I'm receiving treatment to relieve the stress and low QoL that results from my symptoms. Comorbidities can come in the form of autonomic nervous system dysfuction, gastrointestinal functional disorders, neurological disorderes, and autoimmune disorders.

I also have a condition called Fibromyalgia (FMS), which is not only commonly found amongst EDS patients, but also in those with PTSD as well. Although it was once thought to be caused by a misfiring of pain signals in the brain, new evidence shows that FMS is more than likely autoimmune, with there being damage to the small fibers of the peripheral nervous system, inflammation in the brain and nerves of the spinal cord, and several autoantibodies found in high quantities in FMS patients. Likewise with EDS, Fibromyalgia also has many of the same comorbidities, many of which fall under the Dysautonomia umbrella- Dysautonomia meaning "autonomic dysfunction," in reference to the part of the nervous system that controls the body's 'automatic' processes.

Currently, I use a walker rollator and a mobility scooter to get around, and I also have braces for my most vulnerable joints. I'm also a medical cannabis user, and I'm overwhelmingly in support of the total legalization and decriminalization of weed for medical, spiritual and recreational uses.

I am also developmentally disabled with Autism and some learning disabilities (not intellectual disability!) I have a number of psychiatric disabilities alongside these as well, but I'm a bit more private about these since mental illness has become a bit of a joke in the online realm. All you need to know is that I experience dissociation, psychosis and neurosis, and I'm traumatized.

As a result of these conditions, I'm also an intermittent AAC user! Right now I use CoughDrop, but I'm hoping I can switch to TD Snap soon since I much prefer it in every aspect. I'm not sure if I would call myself semi-verbal or not, but I constantly struggle with talking and feel as though I only have a limited amount of time I can spend on talking verbally each day before my quota is filled. The quality of my speech is also very hit-or-miss, with the way I constantly stutter, trip over words, say things that I don't mean, and generally feel a disconnect from my words in my brain and my vocal chords. Therefore, I'm learning how to use AAC in order to supplement my speech for when I'm having the most trouble with talking!

Why bring these up??

I'm open about talking about these (to an extent) because I think that education, awareness and acceptance of the disabled is a vital part of true disability justice. While not every disabled person is obligated to divulge this sort of information with the world, I choose to share some (but not all!) of it as I hope to one day become an educator for those who have recently discovered their disabled status, as well as for allies who want to dedicate themselves to the disability rights movement!

I also align myself with the Cripplepunk community, as I believe that disabled people do not exist to be palatable to abled people, nor should we have to follow their expectations of being a "good" disabled person. I will look disabled, I will act disabled, and there's no reason why I must hide this extremely important part of my life from anyone for the sake of their own comfort.