THE WEBMASTER...

I'm Eddie (or whatever other names you may know me by,) the webmaster of this here site!

I'm a 24 year old cat-bat-thing using the computer. Born and raised in Eastern Ontario, Canada and currently living on unceded Anishinaabe-Algonquin land (ᐊᓂᔑᓈᐯᒃ.)

Me as a person

I find it rather hard for me to describe who I am, as I have quite a bit of confusion around my identity thanks to my mental health problems, but I'll try my best!

I consider myself to be rather sociable, even if I tend to be rather shy and take a bit of time to warm up to people before I feel comfortable with truly being myself. However, factors outside of my control keep me tethered to my house most of the time. Even with this in mind, I make it my life mission to be there for my friends and help out my peers and neighbours whenever possible. As someone who thrives off of having a sense of belonging amongst others, I am a big believer of peer-to-peer support and building strong communities, and while my circumstances have left me unable to practice this in the real world, I still make sure to practice this in the online world with the beauty of the internet! More on that later...

Although I might have a hard time with showing it, I'm a highly emotional person who feels very deeply and intensely, often without my own knowledge! My lows take me down deep, and my highs make me feel as though I can reach the sky. Although, I often wear a permanent scowl on my face due to being autistic, so you might not even know how intensely I'm feeling on the inside at first glance!

I also generally consider myself someone who is a lover, with an amount of love and passion for the things that make me feel whole ready to burst at the seams at any moment. When I'm in love with something or someone, I often like to go all-in and show the world just how much I love said thing or person! I truly mean it when I say I believe that love is the thing that will save us all, and is the reason why we're here to this very day.

If there's one trait I feel can be a double-edged sword for me, it's the fact that I thrive off of being in control of my environment. Organizing, planning, and scheduling all run my life, and I must be absolutely sure about whatever I'm about to get myself into. On one hand, this allows me to provide myself with a sense of comfort by planning things ahead as thoroughly as I can, while on the other, I can get so caught up in the details that I end up overwhelming myself with everything. If it has to do with making unplanned decisions, then I want nothing to do with it! I'm also a big creature of habit and I hate any kind of change to my routine or environment.

Lastly, I consider myself someone who learns best by doing things, and I consider this website to be good evidence upholding that fact! Visuals are also a great way to learn things, but the best way for me to completely understand how something works is to just do it! Which doesn't always go well for someone like me who feels they need to analyze all possible risks before I decide to do something, but I'm trying to start letting go of this instinct of mine and allow room for failure to happen.

If you're interested in typology or astrology, here's some of my personality types/zodiac signs:
ESFJ-T, 6w7, 692, ESE, SO/SX, SLOAN, Netural Good, Melancholic, Gemini sun/Pisces moon/Cancer rising, dragon

My history on the internet

I was introduced to a wonderful tool called the computer when I was as young as 3 years old, and my first experiences using this amazing, magical object would be through playing Rollercoaster Tycoon (as best as a 3-year-old could do, anyway.) Although I don't actually remember having used the computer at such an early age, my parents can vouch for the fact that as soon as I discovered the family computer, it became my escape from a world that wasn't built for me. Especially when I hadn't started speaking until I was around 4 years old, I imagine that the computer gave me a way to express myself in ways that made a little bit more sense to me than using my vocal chords did at the time.

I have very vague memories of the first years I spent discovering the internet, with websites like Club Penguin and Webkinz becoming a keen focus for me when I was around 5 years old. These games would both become individual special interests of mine that I would hold for many years, and would naturally confuse my elementary school classmates who likely weren't allowed on the Internet at the time. Still, every day when I got home from school, my corner of the internet would become a place of solace for me to retreat to and spend hours on just playing around with it.

It wasn't long before a domino effect would take place, with my discovery of this strange website called YouTube being the first piece to be placed. From there, I discovered that people would record themselves drawing on digital art programs, with my favourite subject at the time being Warrior Cats fanart. It was only a matter of time before I discovered what a "fursona" was and found the furry fandom through the artists that I adored and watched religiously. Discovering this niche community made me feel ecstatic, after many years of seeing and drawing myself as anthropomorphic animal characters! This would lead me down a path towards a site called DeviantArt, which I joined when I was well under the age limit out of pure excitement to share my artwork with the world. Naturally, I didn't get many eyes on my artwork (except for this one Nyan Cat vs. Tac Nayn piece I did when I was around 11 years old, which is surprisingly still making the rounds on the internet,) but I was still happy to share my creations with the world.

Throughout the many years I'd rack up being on the internet, I'd collect some bits and pieces of coding knowledge through sites like the aforementioned DeviantArt, as well as Tumblr, Toyhouse, and Artfight. I'd even make a website as a kid to showcase my artwork on, but that site's since been lost to time and memory, as my parents understandably didn't want to pay for a domain name that was more legible than whatever it was that Google Sites spat out for me. However, I never truly sat down and made an entirely hand-coded website until I started this website! Although, the homepage's 1.0 layout, as well as the websites that came before, would be made using free templates that I found would suit my needs well enough, as my coding knowledge at the time didn't really give me enough understanding of how CSS worked. In fact, the first website that I would create entirely from the ground-up would be my art website, tri4ge.icu in late 2024. I'd then take the knowledge I learned from building this website (and some pages from this website,) to create the 2.0 layout that this site is currently operating on!

Although I resent many things about the internet that I could write paragraphs about (and have,) Speaking of, I think the main reason why I've continued to use the internet for so long and to the degree that I do, is because it gives me, a multiply disabled person, the chance to connect with other people around the world, sometimes other people who are also disabled in some way! Without having access to the internet, I'd be a much more lonely person, the effects of which I don't like to consider for very long. The internet has also given me a vital method of expressing myself, especially as someone who struggles with speech and language thanks to their disabilities- coding is just one of the many ways I'm able to express myself with technology, and I'm forever thankful for that.

Dreams and aspirations

Truth be told, it's difficult for me to have dreams or aspirations for the future when the world is the way it is against disabled people, at least for now. It's likely that I will never be able to work to the same standards as abled people, disability benefits only give you so much, and there's always the chance that my health can decline further. Therefore, I've become afraid of setting myself up for disappointment if and when things don't go my way.

That being said, I do have a few ideas on what I'd want my ideal life to be like, if it were up to me. For one, I know for a fact that I'd want to live with my partner, and preferably somewhere with good public transportation and where all of my needs are close to me. I'd also love to have enough money for the both of us to not only have our basic necessities covered, but also for us to be able to indulge in our hobbies and travel frequently enough to see our friends, attend conventions, and discover all the amusement parks that the world has to offer (well, at least in North America. Not sure if I'll ever be able to afford going overseas...) I'd also love to be able to have the chance to build my own offline communities, as well as having the opportunity to give back to my local community and grassroots organizations.

Overall, I just want to be happy, and to make others feel happy whenever possible. I want to be able to support myself, my partner, and the pets that we'll likely have, while also being able to have extra funds to spare for those who are in need of a helping hand.

I'm a multiply disabled person from birth, and this has become a very important aspect of my life, so naturally I have to make a section of my website entirely dedicated to my experiences with being disabled!

The disability I consider to have made the most impact in my life is my hEDS. I was born with a condition called Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, which is part of a group of connective tissue disorders that affect how the body produces collagen. As the name suggests, hEDS affects one's joints in a way that makes them hypermobile, and while most cases of hypermobility are benign and come without any problems, hEDS is diagnosed when a certain criteria of symptoms and poor health are met. Symptoms of hEDS can include chronic joint pain and instability, frequent dislocations, mild skin hyperextensibility, abnormal scarring, chronic fatigue, headaches, and many, many other symptoms.

Since collagen is found all throughout every single organ system of the body, this means that Ehlers Danlos Syndromes have a wide range of symptoms and affects on one's quality of life and survival, which is why the 13 different subtypes exist in order to classify patients based on their symptoms and how their faulty collagen production affects them. While hEDS is not considered to be terminal, unlike other forms of Ehlers Danlos, it is still a very serious condition that leads to a wide range of health problems outside of just hypermobility.

As a result of this, I experience a wide number of comorbidities that all affect my quality of life and wellbeing, which I am currently in treatment for. Comorbidities can come in the form of autonomic nervous system dysfunction (or Dysautonomia,) gastrointestinal functional disorders, neurological disorders, and autoimmune disorders.

I also have a condition called Fibromyalgia (FMS), which is not only commonly found amongst EDS patients, but also in those with PTSD as well. Although it was once thought to be caused by a misfiring of pain signals in the brain, new evidence shows that FMS is more than likely autoimmune, with there being damage to the small fibers of the peripheral nervous system, inflammation in the brain and nerves of the spinal cord, and several autoantibodies found in high quantities in FMS patients. Likewise with EDS, Fibromyalgia also has many of the same comorbidities, many of which fall under the Dysautonomia umbrella.

In order to support myself and my body, I currently use a rollator walker and a mobility scooter to get around, and I also wear braces for my most vulnerable joints when I actually remember to wear them... In order to gain pain relief, I also use medical cannabis very heavily, and I'm a staunch supporter of the total legalization and decriminalization of weed for medical, spiritual, and recreational uses.

Neurodiversity

I am also developmentally disabled with Autism and some learning disabilities (not intellectual disability!) I have a number of psychiatric disabilities alongside these as well, but I'm a bit more private about these since mental illness has become a bit of a joke in the online realm. All you need to know is that I experience dissociation, psychosis and neurosis, and I'm traumatized.

With regards to my Autism, I feel it affects everything I do and how I interact with the world around me, and I truly wouldn't be the same person if I wasn't Autistic. Not only do I attribute me being physically disabled to my Autism, thanks to the overwhelming evidence of Autism and conditions like EDS being heavily linked, but I also think a lot of my detailed-oriented and passionate nature is rooted in my Autism.

As stated earlier, I didn't speak a whole lot until I was around 4 years old, but problems with my speech have still been present for my entire life, which has lead me to become an intermittent user of Augmentative Alternative Communication, or AAC. Naturally, this comes in the form of me using my iPad loaded with TD Snap and Coughdrop in order to communicate when speech just isn't working for me, but I also have my own communication cards made by NeuroInclusivity@Etsy.com attached to my sunflower lanyard for when I don't have access to my iPad! Personally, I'm not sure if I'd consider myself semi-verbal or not, but the struggle I have with talking is constant, and I feel as though I only have a limited amount of time I can spend on talking verbally each day before my quota is filled. The quality of my speech is also very hit-or-miss, with the way I constantly stutter, trip over words, say things that I don't mean, and generally feel a disconnect from my words in my brain and my vocal chords. Therefore, I've been learning how to use AAC in order to supplement my speech for when I'm having the most trouble with talking!

Why bring these up??

I'm open with talking about my disabilities to an extent because I think that education, awareness and acceptance of the disabled is a vital part of true disability justice. While not every disabled person is obligated to divulge this sort of information with the world, I choose to share some, but not all, of it as I hope to one day become an educator for those who have recently discovered their disabled status, as well as for allies who want to dedicate themselves to the disability rights movement! Of course, I do still value my privacy, so there's certain things that I won't divulge in a public space, but I have no problem with being open about these things when the time and space is appropriate.

I also align myself with the Cripplepunk community, as I believe that disabled people do not exist to be palatable to abled people, nor should we have to follow their expectations of being a "good" disabled person. I will look disabled, I will act disabled, and there's no reason why I must hide this extremely important part of my life from anyone for the sake of their own comfort.

Special Interests

Furry culture: My main fursona is Hyson the vampire bat, who is also my fursuiting character! So far I've only been to one convention twice (CanFURence '23 and '24,) but I'm making plans to visit even more furry conventions in the future!

Toys and toy collecting: My favourite toys to collect are plushies, and I collect from many brands! Brands of interest include: Jellycat, Sunlemon, Charlie Bears, Furby, Littlest Pet Shop, Prime Shiba, Palm Pals, Mary Meyer, Webkinz, Douglas, Amuse, and My Little Pony.

Rollercoasters: I have over 50 coaster credits, my home park is La Ronde and my favourite coasters are Leviathan at Canada's Wonderland and Iron Gwazi at Busch Gardens Tampa! I also have a beginner's guide to coasters if you're interested!

Music: I don't play any instruments or make any music myself (yet!), I just love listening to music and often find myself fixating on specific bands and musicians! I feel very much like music is the window to my soul.

General interests

Furry culture, medical science, mechanics, antiques, fashion, technology, animation, disasters and freak accidents, Kawaii culture, bootleg items, puzzles, forensics, lost media, TV continuity, ARGS, abandoned places, virtual pets, PSA's, psychology, typology (just for fun! I hate people who take it super seriously...), politics, aviation, the Emergency Alert System, tornado/air raid sirens

Hobbies

Art & illustration, fursuit building, listening to and finding new music, talking with my partner and friends, web surfing, going thrifting toy customizing, researching my special interests, model building, cooking & baking, walking, photography, coding, kandi making

Media interests

Music: Check out my music page to see what I'm into!

Shows: M*A*S*H, Lost, Yellowjackets, Trailer Park Boys, Jackass, Futurama, Venture Brothers, Bojack Horseman, Tuca and Bertie, The Owl House, Infinity Train, Archer, My Little Pony, Breaking Bad, Psych, Barry, Big City Greens, Gravity Falls

Movies: Martin, Black Christmas, Puss In Boots: The Last Wish, The Wild Robot, Brain Damage, Wall-E, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Jennifer's Body, Creep 1+2, Drive, Alien, Kung Fu Panda, How To Train Your Dragon, Candyman, Carrie, Akira, Pacific Rim, Tetsuo: The Iron Man, Texas Chainsaw Massacre 1+2, Behind The Mask, Into the Spiderverse, Baby Driver, The Exorcist, Get Out

Games: Hotline Miami, Ratchet and Clank, Minecraft, Petz (by PF Magic, not the Ubisoft series!), Sonic the Hedgehog, Super Mario Bros, Pokemon, 1000 Spikes, Silent Hill, Resident Evil, Digimon, Megaman

Other media: Sanrio, Marble Hornets, EverymanHYBRID, WHAM City Comedy + Alan Resick, Disney, Dreamworks, Rankin-Bass, Red Letter Media, LPSTube and KinzTube, SmallAnt, Scott the Woz, Jerma985, commentary YouTube, Defunctland, BrutalMoose, LA Beast

Favourites

Animals: All cats, bats, zebras, bears, hedgehogs, ducks, red pandas, deer, penguins, ferrets, horses, bees, moths

Food: Chicken alfredo tortellini, pepperoni pizza, grilled cheese sandwiches, mac and cheese, strawberries, pomegranate, quesadillas, lasagna

Colours: Pink, yellow, green, red

Items: Teddy bear from my partner, rollator walker, mobility scooter, sunflower lanyard, iPad & Apple Pencil, Midland WR120 NOAA Weather Radio (Mr. Beeps), Iron Gwazi Coaster Cutout, signed Serj Tankian Elect The Dead vinyl, plane models

Aesthetics: Medical & hospitals, bright colours & rainbows, 80's/90's/2000's, old internet, childhood memories, vintage & antiques, natural ecosystems, amusement parks & carnivals, tacky knick-knacks, psychedelia & surrealism, Halloween & Valentine's, sparklefurs & amateur artwork, ...wait, were you expecting to see some -cores here?

Pokemon: Audino & Mega Audino, Sprigatito line, Swoobat, Blitzle, Skitty, Bewear, Togekiss, Joltik, Galarian Ponyta

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